16.11.09

Living in my own personal hell..

Remember the first time we met..?

i don't.

03.11.09

Miser a b l e.

We humans are pathetic. From the stars of our existence all we have tired is to become something that we will never achieve.

Today I understood why we pathetic, miserable & worthless humans want so desperately to be better than we were created.

I wished I could stop time & have the courage to speak my mind, without fearing the unforeseen. But as expected, fear stood in the way.

So what do you do then? Simple, we do what we are best at, being considerably mute..

16.09.09

She's everything i'm not..

Fuck you!

03.09.09

Your my addic t i o n.

The sinews of our heart,

the furnace of our lips,

what immortal love..

Oh go on loving me -

never doubt the faithfullest heart of your beloved.

ever thine
ever mine
ever ours.

01.08.09

And it's taken me this long baby but I figured you out.

and you think it will be fine again but not this time around..

And you tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry...

13.07.09

...?

¿Cuántas veces preparé un discurso perfecto?

Tratando de mentir y evadir

así mis sentimientos

que hoy cuelgan el cartel de aforo completo

porque de ti estoy lleno.

26.06.09

Panic att a c k.

Stress

Stresss

Stressss.

Thought everything was going to disappear but i still feel the same way i did before...

27.05.09

My own personal hero i n e.

Do you still love me?
For ever and ever.

Do you still think im beautiful?
You will always be.

06.05.09

You said you would never hurt me...

13.04.09

Despera t i o n.

"They say we leave this world just the way we came into it ---- naked and alone.

And what if we fail ? or are never truly loved ? What then ? Can we ever measure up ?Or will the quiet desperation of a life gone wanting, Drive us mad? "

29.03.09

You seek the lonliest person in the world
just to make your heart beat at a pace,
to give your face a smile
& your conscience tranquility.

You neglect the lover
for you know he is no angel,
nor a life saver
or anything marvelous.

You request a miserable life
making the tears blades,
the time infinity
& your dreams bruised.

You convince exquisite bodies
of the darkest lies,
deepest cuts
reality of crawling out.

You suffer in agony
running from the truth,
but hiding from the tale
& resenting yourself.

Please tell me who she is
as i feel like her,
the lover never saves
and life always provides pain.

25.03.09

Its you &&
me...

He takes me by the hand. I look into his blue broken eyes and see the devil crawling out of them. His once sweet lips open and say.
- I think she likes me.
I stand paralyzed by the words that just cut my chest open. My eyes meet the ground, and i feel the rush of anger throught my body. I realize how navie I was for not being able to have noticed that myself.
I feel his warm hand touch my cold chin. My eyes are forced to look into his beautiful blue eyes, and once again his lips slowly start to move.

- Dont worry. You are my world.
As the words creap out of his mouth I feel a cold shiver climb up my spin. I close my eyes & force the tears to stay, slowly my body starts to turn numb. While my eyes are closed, the words start to echo in my head, and as fast as they hit my heart, i understand what they mean. He is not longer mine...

19.03.09

i guess i wasn't good enough...

13.03.09

Letmebeyour l o v e r.
&& would you follow?
if it was me.

&& would you laugh?
if it was me.

Think I’m invincible you see,
Through the me.

12.03.09

Writing is

easiers than speaking

the words.

I cant hear her scream anymore,
but the music is turned low down.

I cant see the tears run down her face,

but i am stearing right in her eyes.

Im listening to my heart beat,

but nothing can be heard.

I look into a mirror,

but no reflection exists.

I give one more glance at her,

but im looking at myslef...

failure && sorry...